trying to breathe
Jan. 15th, 2025 09:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
buffshelI've about reached my limit as far as my art and the internet/soc media. I'm starting to think that I don't even want to share my art on the internet anymore. My body creates this pressure about posting. All of it has to be just so. Making for a social platform is such a chore, and I don't even hold myself to posting regularly. And anyway, why would I go through all this work for such little engagement? Nah. I've tried to be unbothered by it, but I am bothered. Very bothered.
Delete instagram? Maybe. Probably. I don't know. I've done this delete-and-repeat routine more than I can remember.
When it comes to my current insta, I'm not really trying anyway. I have no desire to even write my captions or put music to them. There's no point in writing them if no one besides myself will read them or see these posts. I'm not intending to drop off of social media entirely, but I think maybe I should finally remove my art altogether from online. The problem is, I don't know where to go afterwards. I don't know what to do with this thing that I know I like to do. But if my primary art form these days is digital art then what do I even do with it? I just haven't found what's right for me. I don't dislike my art, but all the same it's extremely discouraging to make with the intention of sharing it only to find that no one is looking (or, more commonly, the algorithm hasn't bothered to show it to anyone).
Feeling extremely lost right now and searching for a way out of this time loop.
Delete instagram? Maybe. Probably. I don't know. I've done this delete-and-repeat routine more than I can remember.
When it comes to my current insta, I'm not really trying anyway. I have no desire to even write my captions or put music to them. There's no point in writing them if no one besides myself will read them or see these posts. I'm not intending to drop off of social media entirely, but I think maybe I should finally remove my art altogether from online. The problem is, I don't know where to go afterwards. I don't know what to do with this thing that I know I like to do. But if my primary art form these days is digital art then what do I even do with it? I just haven't found what's right for me. I don't dislike my art, but all the same it's extremely discouraging to make with the intention of sharing it only to find that no one is looking (or, more commonly, the algorithm hasn't bothered to show it to anyone).
Feeling extremely lost right now and searching for a way out of this time loop.
